Afterglow

When music fades
Its whispering notes linger in the memory
As the sun sets
It tosses its dying rays into the sand and water
When stars fall
Their light streaks the sky for one second longer
Flowers fade away
But the sweet scent still drifts on the breeze
So day must turn to night
So summer turns to autumn
As the lullaby notes of the Lifesong Turn into those of a dirge
And the silver luster of platinum
Dims to dirty grey

Everything has an end
But nothing really wants to leave
Sometimes the afterglow of the memory
Is stronger than the original light

.......Pain

If you looked into my life and see the pain that I've felt
You'd realize the words I'm speakin is pain in itself
You can see the whole picture while it's painting itself
And if you fail to see it clearly then I'm blaming myself Damn,
I have a tough time explaining myself It's like I don't even know me,

I'm a stranger to myself
And inside it eats me alive and dangers my health
But I just play what I'm dealt with and stay real to myself
I just keep the pain in the back of my brain, cause it helps
I just brush it off and laugh at the pain, cause it helps



Everyday trying to hide it is actually a strain in itself
With so much pain my strength practically gains on itself
I look back and wish the past would rearrange itself
Pain spread through my soul, it can't contain itself

But I'm strong now, and
I realize that I can change myself
And you must be fake if you can't relate to the pain that I felt..

Freedom

To shut my eyes,
Never to open them again,
What a wonderful freedom from the burdens
That life hangs around my neck, Weighing me down with cares and woes, And feelings of despair and a lack of hope.

To shut my eyes,
To dream endlessly until the end of days, When it doesn't matter how I appear, How I talk or how I write,
And no one judges me on appearance only,
But looks beyond the shell into the depths of what I can offer.

Self-conscious and alone,
Too scared to speak out,
Too afraid to appear the fool and lose the good things in my life.
Too quiet to know,
Too cut off to be noticed.
Too tired to care.

To shut my eyes,
Never to open them again.

What a wonderful freedom.

ŧiмє is ηøw...

Another wave has passed, and I'm still here
I suppose I'm supposed to be glad.
But I can't find a source of joy
Right now I'm just plain sad.

I want to cry my heart out
But my water bill must be in arrears,
Because no matter how deep my misery,
I can't seem to find any tears…

My spirit's flat, my soul wrung out
All joy in my life is long gone
I can vaguely remember laughing,
But right now my 'joy factor' is none.

For now my life will go on
Whatever it may lack
But I know, when I least expect it
The Darkness will come back.

Reflections [PART II]

Sometimes
I sit and stare
I think and hope that life would be fair

Nobody
seems to get it
They just have no clue
That I can be a friend
that is really true.

Everybody
whispers All the laughs,
the jokes, nobody cares
The way they all make fun
of my frizzy mind,
If only life could be easy I wish that life could be fun I wish I didn't have to run and hide

Reflections

Man must learn to walk alone.
Live in fellowship with all, but in the heart, know that you are alone. You belong to no one: no one belongs to you! Alone and empty-handed must you wend your way to the Alone!

---Jen Heaver

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