Freedom

To shut my eyes,
Never to open them again,
What a wonderful freedom from the burdens
That life hangs around my neck, Weighing me down with cares and woes, And feelings of despair and a lack of hope.

To shut my eyes,
To dream endlessly until the end of days, When it doesn't matter how I appear, How I talk or how I write,
And no one judges me on appearance only,
But looks beyond the shell into the depths of what I can offer.

Self-conscious and alone,
Too scared to speak out,
Too afraid to appear the fool and lose the good things in my life.
Too quiet to know,
Too cut off to be noticed.
Too tired to care.

To shut my eyes,
Never to open them again.

What a wonderful freedom.

ŧiмє is ηøw...

Another wave has passed, and I'm still here
I suppose I'm supposed to be glad.
But I can't find a source of joy
Right now I'm just plain sad.

I want to cry my heart out
But my water bill must be in arrears,
Because no matter how deep my misery,
I can't seem to find any tears…

My spirit's flat, my soul wrung out
All joy in my life is long gone
I can vaguely remember laughing,
But right now my 'joy factor' is none.

For now my life will go on
Whatever it may lack
But I know, when I least expect it
The Darkness will come back.

Reflections [PART II]

Sometimes
I sit and stare
I think and hope that life would be fair

Nobody
seems to get it
They just have no clue
That I can be a friend
that is really true.

Everybody
whispers All the laughs,
the jokes, nobody cares
The way they all make fun
of my frizzy mind,
If only life could be easy I wish that life could be fun I wish I didn't have to run and hide

Reflections

Man must learn to walk alone.
Live in fellowship with all, but in the heart, know that you are alone. You belong to no one: no one belongs to you! Alone and empty-handed must you wend your way to the Alone!

---Jen Heaver

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